A letter to myself~

Dear Jacki,

It’s been a wild few months! Who would’ve saw any of this coming?! Not you! That’s for dang sure ;) But here we are! We made it! How ya feeling? Just kidding, I’m you, remember ;)

The purpose of this letter is to finally release all the things you’ve allowed to hold yourself back so that you don’t repeat old patterns, can finally heal, and move towards the future you’ve always dreamed for yourself. But here’s the deal, you have to let go of expectations. You have to move forward and trust that God has a perfect plan for you and that his ways are higher than your ways, got it?! I know you too well and you like to try to grab the wheel from time to time and steer from the backseat. Here’s a little truth bomb for you — you are a shitty backseat driver.

So it’s time to chill out and just enjoy the ride :)

We both know all the reasons you’ve made the decisions and choices that you have. Going forward, we no longer make decisions based out of fear. You face that shit head on and determine what is best for you. Notice I didn’t say take a vote and see what everyone else likes first and then choose. I said determine what is best for you. Nobody knows you better than you. You aren’t the Jacki you were 20 years ago. Hell, you aren’t the Jacki you were two weeks ago! So give yourself grace.

Be kind to you. You kick our ass harder than anyone I know. It’s time to quit beating yourself up for feeling a certain way or for not feeling a certain way. Recognize you’ve changed. You can’t be expected to feel the same way about aspects of your life that you made when you were a different person. It is what it is. There is no past. There is no future. There is only right now. Keep focused on that~

No more allowing guilt and shame the opportunity to weigh their opinions about your decisions. They have no place here. Everything we do going forward comes from a place of unconditional love. Remember that the key to unconditional love is having no expectations! I put that in bold because you like to run ahead sometimes and well, I’ve seen you run and you aren’t that fast ;) So stay in the moment. Stay focused on your goals. And always act out of unconditional love.

You might make decisions at some point that might piss off or hurt the people you love. Recognize that this happens sometimes when you make decisions that are in your best interest. It will be important to remind yourself that unconditional love also applies to you. You cannot be everything to everybody. As long as you acted in integrity and made your chose out of love rather than fear, then you did the right thing.

This isn’t the easy road. Did I mention that? But it’s the road you are meant to be on. There’s no looking back from this point, got it? We got big plans for us and it’s time to get to work.

Lastly, it’s time to forgive yourself for everything that once was and release yourself of it. Yesterday is no more. Be authentically you from this point forward and go after your dreams! When you start to get scared, come back and read this! You’ve grown leaps and bounds in a matter of months! You can do this! I believe in you!

Here’s to the unknown. Here’s to finding the magic in each day and shining unconditional love to all we meet~ Here’s to stepping out in faith and trusting that God will never leave you or forsake you! Here’s to passionate new beginnings and to the purpose found in this very second.

Be you unapologetically (unless we are talking about ‘lose your shit in traffic’ you — apologize for her profusely) ;)

Love Always,

You

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JD Greyson is a free spirit who loves to breathe passion & purpose into each of her pieces. She runs on copious amounts of conversation, & compassion~

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